I’ve had a blog for about two years, not that I actually write about anything interesting, or that anyone except my brother ever reads it, but it exists.  I keep a journal, and I have about 2400 pages from the end of high school until today.  I love to write.  I just don’t have any particular topic to write about.

I love the idea of blogging, but I can’t get into it.  I blog at entirely random intervals.  I did it pretty regularly when I used it as a journal, and I love the idea of integrating photos  into my posts and I do tend to post more when I’m on vacation.  My question is will the blogs be there after I am?  I suspect not.  While it’s true that my handwritten journal may be destroyed, they are at least a tangible physical that can be preserved, God willing.

So to introduce myself, I am a Christian, a husband, a father to two, and a druggist. (I know we call us pharmacists now, but I like that word.  I don’t want it to die, so I’ll just use it as often as possible.)  I believe in God and I believe that Jesus is God and the bible is true.   I spend most of my spare time doing ministry work- I work a lot helping those who have addictions, whether it is alcohol, drugs, pornography, or food.  In 2008 I lost 70 pounds just with the understanding that addiction to food was not a result of having the “fat gene”, it was a spiritual problem. 

As far as Christianity is concerned, I disagree with most of what is considered acceptable as far as what we see in America these days.  I used to be a hypocrite-great in knowledge of the bible- but without understanding.   There were vast tracts of the bible that just made no sense to me because I had the wrong view of God.  I had invented a god in my own mind that was great and was similar to the One in the bible, but was clearly different.  Now I understand- I have a good concept of who God is, why things are, and I am satisfied with it.   So I truly believe that most who claim Christianity in the United States are unrepentant & unregenerated hypocrites (i.e. not Christians- goats, impostors.)   There is a general misconception both of who God is and how Christians should act.  (For example if I point out to someone that they are not acting as a Christian should they think I am being unchristian when in reality I am being exactly Christian.)  That sounds harsh, but I used to be there and to be honest a bit upset that nobody every told me I was not acting as a Christian should.  Trust me, it’s better on this side!  I can answer most questions about the bible and God, at least in the general sense. 

Now for being a husband, I am working on that.  I realize that I spend most of my time thinking of myself, but I’m not called to do that.  I am called to be better than that.  I’m getting there, and the fact that I struggle with it is my proof.  In all my wife is extremely intelligent (as far as wisdom is concerned I value hers over almost any other human’s- she’s that good).

And for being a Dad, I love it.  It is both frightening and fun.  Here I am raising two more people who have their own hopes, desires, and personality.  We have an 8 year old daughter and a 4 year old son.  They are exactly opposite in every way except their propensity to watch too much Scooby Doo.   I mean they are exactly opposite.  When one is afraid, the other is not.  They have opposite reactions to sugar.  One is entirely messy the other is inherently neat.  They compliment each other well.

Now honestly I have no idea what I’m going to blog about.  It may be theology, maybe whether or not my chickens are still alive (Edit: They are not), or what I had for breakfast.  Or maybe after a couple of entries I’ll default back to my old blog.  But hey, here I am!  I also twitter @capedan .

Any ideas are welcome, feel free to comment, but just so you know any foul language or blasphemies (including not capitalizing God’s name) will be happily deleted.  (If you lack the intelligence to communicate without the f-word I just don’t value your thoughts as much.  Sorry.)